somehow everything's gonna fall right into place

it's amazing how life changes so suddenly. but, when an opportunity is right in front of your face, you'd be a fool to walk away.

ever since i've been up here, i've been babysitting for a lady who has a three-year-old daughter and way too much to do and too little time. She really needs a live-in nanny and house-keeper, but there was noone here she felt would really work out. except for me, but i was planning on leaving to go... nowhere? i don't know, i had no direction. vague ideas maybe, but nothing concrete. however, it seemed like everything i needed was in front of my face the entire time. a nice-paying job with flexible hours, a place to stay, the abililty to leave for a month or so to go to england, living in an area that i really enjoy, free to write and create and to hike and explore. i get a new vehicle, my boss is willing to work with me to help me afford it. i'm going to hopefully find a church to go to. maybe even a part-time job at a ski place? who knows, anything is possible, i'm realizing.

i get to see the winter here. skiing, ice skating.. snow! god is taking care of everything, giving me what i need. it's breath-taking, really. i can hardly believe it.

i am so grateful. i am so taken aback.

his mercies are new every morning

and that is a miraculous thing.

i have so much to be thankful for. i'm on this crazy, wild ride called my life and god is the one steering. he knows exactly what i need and when i need it.

there are just certain things that i don't think will ever be the same. i can't sleep in anymore. mornings are just too beautiful to miss out on. i'm not interested in shopping and loading up on new things to make myself feel new. i have mountains and rivers and lakes to do that for me, mainly because they point to their Creator, and he makes all things beautiful and new in their time. but, i still lack in so many areas. but, there is one who fills all empty places when they're ready.

"where my feet will never trod"

collapsed blue of sky
water to my wandering eye
a reflection, out of grasp
and i, on the outside, lack
doomed to see, but never touch
and doomed to see much too much
trees of autumn, filled with red
are words to me, never said

leaves of red

"get up, get out, make this be for something - or else it's all just nothing" (the rocket summer)

long time no blog, eh? however, being laptopless is probably the best thing that has ever happened to me. to think, i probably would have been spending my time with my face in front of a screen as opposed to biking down to the village, or driving up to Lake Placid. And living in a tent has completely changed my sleeping patterns. I go to bed earlier and get up earlier. And the great part about that has been the morning jogs on the great trails Crandall Park has through the woods. And I've got time... time to brush up on my french, time to play the guitar, time to read and time to talk with God. And for once in my life, I'm at peace with the pace of time. I used to stress over how fast it was going, or how slow it was passing. But now, now I'm not worried about anything.

life is strange, it's so short, but sometimes it seems like it endlessly stretches out in front of us...

and every single need is being taken care of. amazing, isn't it?


the leaves are beginning to change here. the nights and mornings are crisp and chilly. fall is approaching, and it's got to be the best time of the year. the trees come alive for one last hurrah before the winter sets in. the temperature is ideal, starting to cool down. i just regret that i'm going to miss the winter with the blankets and blankets of snow...