I've been planning, scheming, whatever you want to call it.

I'm tired of rambling haphazardly through life, with no specific purpose or meaning. I was brought up to believe that every person has a purpose, something that gives their life meaning. The Bible even mentions that without vision, the people perish. I have had no vision, my eyes were firmly fixed to the ground. But, I've begun to raise them bit by bit and look ahead into the future God has planned for me if I just trust him.

Basically, I want to help the broken, heal the hurting, show people there is a better way than pain. I want people to know that they have worth. I want to tell people all the things I wish people would have told me. I want to spread light into darkness.

I am seriously praying and considering going back to school for counseling. I'm looking into programs and options, and plan on taking this year and seeing if that's what I really need to do. It might seem like I've been wasting time, but I haven't. I've gone around in a lot of circles, sure, but it has lead me to make some serious decisions, one of which is to make 2009 count.

I don't want this year to be a waste. I want to live and learn and grow as a person and spiritually. I want to explore new horizons, and make amazing life changes. Then, next year, maybe I'll embark on a career path. Or maybe God has something else in store.

No matter what... BRING IT!